Defying Gravity
Have you ever been so excited about serving God you can barely stand it? I have this overwhelming excitement right now that makes me feel all goofy. It is so awesome to get to see God working and to be used by God. Powell is a ministry I have absolutely fallen in love with. Jessie and I came home last night and we were talking a mile a minute because we are so excited to see how the Spirit is working at Powell and through this ministry. Last night, seven kids from Powell came with us to church, which is about normal, but two of the boys came for the first time to an actual service. Now, they have always been willing to go to VBS, get school supplies, and hang out with us at T.A.G., but church was a scary and uninteresting event.
I remember trying to take one of them to church a few years and when we got there he began to cry uncontrollably and made us take him back. I felt that it was an end and that with him we had reached a road block. I don't have favorites at Powell, but I do have my own special connections with some and I have an even stronger desire for these two kids. I have often felt guilty about it, but I decided that if Jesus can pull three of his disciples aside and have his special times with and maybe even saw them as special projects, then it is OK for me to pay special attention to some. I think it is the potential that I see in them that is so overwhelming to me and I can see the impact God is having on them and I can see the potential they have to do some great things in the church. I loved getting to listen to them on the bus as I got to hear a new side of them, a side with their guard down. No longer did I have to joke with them about how shy they were because they were only nodding thei head to all my questions. They were talking like we were best friends and they no longer feel like Jessie and I are some strange people who invade their territory.
I will not share their whole life stories over this blog because they are too dear to them and to dear to us, but I am so excited that they are allowing us to become a part of their life, and though they might not realize it-letting God in too. It has taken four years, but I am finally a part of the community. When I walk around, people don't look at me funny and wonder what I'm doing there. They know who I am and why I'm there and they respect that. It has always been that we've hung out with the kids, but now I'm even getting to talk with the parents, the adults, the older syblings, and the staff.
I was singing with the radio today and caught myself saying these words: "I wanna be your hands, I want to be your feet , Go where you send me" and I realized that though I've been a christian for almost eight years I've only just started to gain that attitude and actually allow God to use me as his hands and feet. I told Jessie that I am so scared that we are gonna get tired because we're riding the excitement now and I don't want to let this community down and I want God to use us. The idea of "what goes up must come down" is something that plays in my head and it scares me. Human nature tells me by the laws of gravity that because I am way up high that I will fall. But thats a human law! If we're truly allowing God to work in us the laws of gravity have no authority.
I doubt many will have made it to this point in this blog because it is extremely long, but I haven't been on here and I have a lot to say. Well, I'll talk about Cincy another time. My fingers are cramping up!
I remember trying to take one of them to church a few years and when we got there he began to cry uncontrollably and made us take him back. I felt that it was an end and that with him we had reached a road block. I don't have favorites at Powell, but I do have my own special connections with some and I have an even stronger desire for these two kids. I have often felt guilty about it, but I decided that if Jesus can pull three of his disciples aside and have his special times with and maybe even saw them as special projects, then it is OK for me to pay special attention to some. I think it is the potential that I see in them that is so overwhelming to me and I can see the impact God is having on them and I can see the potential they have to do some great things in the church. I loved getting to listen to them on the bus as I got to hear a new side of them, a side with their guard down. No longer did I have to joke with them about how shy they were because they were only nodding thei head to all my questions. They were talking like we were best friends and they no longer feel like Jessie and I are some strange people who invade their territory.
I will not share their whole life stories over this blog because they are too dear to them and to dear to us, but I am so excited that they are allowing us to become a part of their life, and though they might not realize it-letting God in too. It has taken four years, but I am finally a part of the community. When I walk around, people don't look at me funny and wonder what I'm doing there. They know who I am and why I'm there and they respect that. It has always been that we've hung out with the kids, but now I'm even getting to talk with the parents, the adults, the older syblings, and the staff.
I was singing with the radio today and caught myself saying these words: "I wanna be your hands, I want to be your feet , Go where you send me" and I realized that though I've been a christian for almost eight years I've only just started to gain that attitude and actually allow God to use me as his hands and feet. I told Jessie that I am so scared that we are gonna get tired because we're riding the excitement now and I don't want to let this community down and I want God to use us. The idea of "what goes up must come down" is something that plays in my head and it scares me. Human nature tells me by the laws of gravity that because I am way up high that I will fall. But thats a human law! If we're truly allowing God to work in us the laws of gravity have no authority.
I doubt many will have made it to this point in this blog because it is extremely long, but I haven't been on here and I have a lot to say. Well, I'll talk about Cincy another time. My fingers are cramping up!
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